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makejapangreat ([personal profile] makejapangreat) wrote in [community profile] phantasmalrift2018-05-16 01:44 pm

Who knows what’s right? The lines keep getting thinner

Who: Shido Masayoshi and whatever unfortunate soul decides to approach him (Open)
What: Shido is working himself to the bone via self-inflicted punishment
When: Early May (like 5/1 ~ 5/12 or thereabouts)
Where: Various
Warnings: Lots of badbrain stuff going on with Shido rn, including self-deprecation, possible thoughts of suicide


[Library]
[Off in the corner sits a man, pouring over a manner of books. The more the days go by, the more that energy and health is sapped from him. The bags under his eyes have been persistent since day one of arriving here, but the noticeable changes are that he does seem to be losing some weight, and perhaps becoming a bit pallid... Yet a fire burns behind his eyes as he reads at the library like clockwork, occasionally extending a hand, fingers tensing, trying to press themselves down on some invisible object. Very occasionally, if one just happens to be around at the right time of day, they might hear a singular "pop" of air in his direction. It's also possible, at times, to find him completely slumped over on the table he's at, asleep, often grunting and twitching in his sleep— it's clearly not very restful...

On a brighter now, later on in the week you might see a henohenomoheji drawn on the back of Shido's head? He doesn't seem to be aware of this...]


[Library - 5/7 (Closed to Izunia)]
[There's more than just a pop today. Today? There's an outright crackle and snap of electricity.

Followed by an agonized yell and the clatter of a chair.

Shido lays on the floor, breathing heavily, one arm desperately clutching at the other that spasms from the surge of electricity that had torn through it. And then something peculiar happens.

Shido laughs. An unsteady sort of laugh, but nevertheless.

Maybe he electrocuted himself so badly he fried his brain...]


[Outside]
[If you get extra lucky, you might catch Shido outside. Particularly, the spot he chooses to go is north, to the top of the Skyclimb Cliffs, where he looks out to the ocean. It seems, well... somewhat of a precarious place for someone to be, really. He seems to be awfully close to the edge at times, no sign of fear or wariness in his body. You might catch him looking down, as if considering something, but for the most part? His gaze remains on the endless blue.

And then, after about thirty minutes of this, he'll quietly turn and head back.]
founderinglight: ([hold])

[personal profile] founderinglight 2018-05-29 11:11 pm (UTC)(link)
[What? He needs his coffee.]

Essentially, yes. It does require a decent memory for what you put in in the first place, which is I suppose the one drawback.
foolishjustice: (Sakamato could do better than that.)

[personal profile] foolishjustice 2018-05-29 11:23 pm (UTC)(link)
[His wings flutter a bit, and the way his weight shifts almost looks awkward.]

I hate how it happened, that they forced me to kill and then put me to a public execution. But the outcome is my way of atoning, and becoming different from the person you made me into. You taught me to kill without hesitation, and to be the same sort of person I hate, but my role as a Composer is to protect people.

I even have the power to revive the dead, as what I am now.
superstylishsquid: (I don't know what to make of it.)

[personal profile] superstylishsquid 2018-05-29 11:30 pm (UTC)(link)
Well...I can't help you with that. But, if it were me? I'd think the way to make up for it is to find ways to atone, do good to counter the evil from your past. Consider it an extreme form of community service.

And in order to do that, you need to be in good shape. When was the last time you slept in a bed, or ate a full meal?
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[personal profile] meowna 2018-05-30 03:02 am (UTC)(link)
Ugh, you moron! You don't drink coffee because you're dying, do you? You drink it to wake you up and give you some quick energy! If you're too tired to do anything, then you eat a meal or get a good night's sleep, and you feel refreshed! You're obviously running on fumes right now--even if you understood magic perfectly, you're probably too weak to even light up a light bulb like this.
foolishjustice: (Shall I explain?)

[personal profile] foolishjustice 2018-05-30 04:10 am (UTC)(link)
...It's thanks to Akira, Kurama, and the others who were there with us. The ones who were my friends, even after I confessed what I'd done. ...One of them who even forgave me after I killed him in cold blood.
dragonmouth: (I just wanna be naked)

[personal profile] dragonmouth 2018-05-30 04:35 am (UTC)(link)
If that's the case... then I apologize for my outburst in the past.

[ Honorless swine, yadda yadda.

She works on slicing that meat up. ]


Usually, Nakari was the one who didn't even give a second thought at such a gory sight... although I suppose training for certain professions steels you to such a thing.
foolishjustice: (Tell me when you're done yapping.)

[personal profile] foolishjustice 2018-05-30 04:36 am (UTC)(link)
[Good idea, because as soon as he realizes he's turned a bit less hostile, his body language immediately turns more reserved and bristly.]

Just three. My boyfriends, and then I met Kana-chan in the UG.
superstylishsquid: (Oh yeah...)

[personal profile] superstylishsquid 2018-05-30 04:46 am (UTC)(link)
...Are you going to put the book down and follow me to the kitchen, or am I going to have to pick you up and carry you there?
founderinglight: ([hold])

[personal profile] founderinglight 2018-05-30 04:50 am (UTC)(link)
Mmmhmm. Quite a bit; our family gets quite a spread of abilities by nature of our bloodline. I'm most specialized in warping - a form of teleportation ability - but there's also weapon conjuring through the Armiger, some elemental magic, and a few members of the line are gifted with illusions, including myself.
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[personal profile] meowna 2018-05-30 05:11 am (UTC)(link)
Why not?

[Just gonna jump up onto the kitchen counter once they get in there. It's much easier to talk like this.]

Even if that's true, that doesn't stop you from eating.
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[personal profile] caduceusoncall 2018-05-30 08:22 pm (UTC)(link)
[Relief relaxes her shoulders as she sets to work peeling the orange for him. She works remarkably fast as she speaks.]

I encourage you to eat more of it now that it is available to you. It will help you feel better physically and fortify against illness.

As for your "atrocities", it is not my place to judge you on your past. It is simply my duty to ensure that everyone under my care, which includes you as long as we are both at this station, remains healthy. I understand you have done terrible things, and your remorse will be only a small part of your punishment, I am sure, but you cannot simply let yourself to decay into nothingness. That is foolish.

[She sets the peeled orange down on the table, demonstrating how to pull it apart as she continues on.]

You cannot right any wrong by sinking into self deprecation and misery.
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[personal profile] meowna 2018-06-01 01:39 am (UTC)(link)
That's why microwaves exist, so you don't have to. I'm no Steel Chef myself, you know; even in my other form, I can't reach the counter.

[Can you imagine a cat trying to cook? Even the mascot form might burn himself trying to reach the stove knobs.

He should've known nightmares would be a problem after a Change of Heart, though..... it's just that he's never had any reason to care about that fact until now.]


Have you tried exercising before bed? Maybe wearing yourself out physically would help.

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