...I didn't need your protection, Ardyn. You had the best intentions, but what I needed was your honesty.
[He stops and sighs, finally breaking eye contact.]
And the really fucked up part is that I can better forgive you the sadism than I could have if it was just another part of the plot. Because at least I can understand that, I understand wanting to hurt back the thing that hurt you.
[He takes a deep breath. Inhale, exhale, thoughts in order instead of just yelling.]
...But also, seven hells, do you think existence in the Ring was a fucking party? It was terrible, it was the most awful thing and even for you I wouldn't do it again. Do you have any idea how much it hurts, to be able to do nothing but sit and watch while people you love burn themselves out and die young, over and over again for two thousand years?
It was awful. Do you think I'm kidding when I say that my love of you was the only thing that kept me me? It was so empty, we were all only barely shadows of ourselves by the end except for Regis, who was a recent enough addition to still have a human heart. The rest of us were... More weapons with wills, for the Chosen King to use against you, than we were people.
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[He stops and sighs, finally breaking eye contact.]
And the really fucked up part is that I can better forgive you the sadism than I could have if it was just another part of the plot. Because at least I can understand that, I understand wanting to hurt back the thing that hurt you.
[He takes a deep breath. Inhale, exhale, thoughts in order instead of just yelling.]
...But also, seven hells, do you think existence in the Ring was a fucking party? It was terrible, it was the most awful thing and even for you I wouldn't do it again. Do you have any idea how much it hurts, to be able to do nothing but sit and watch while people you love burn themselves out and die young, over and over again for two thousand years?
It was awful. Do you think I'm kidding when I say that my love of you was the only thing that kept me me? It was so empty, we were all only barely shadows of ourselves by the end except for Regis, who was a recent enough addition to still have a human heart. The rest of us were... More weapons with wills, for the Chosen King to use against you, than we were people.