[No amount of fishy euphoria can really help him now. He's very obviously distressed, and it all just kind of tumbles out.]
The first time was an accident. Not the executions. Just a terrible, terrible fucking accident and he was gone and I couldn't stand it. Couldn't deal with a world without him in it, couldn't deal with seeing his face on what I thought was a monster to remind me of it constantly.
...Couldn't end myself, not when the people he loved so much needed someone and I was the only option left.
cw suicidal ideation
[No amount of fishy euphoria can really help him now. He's very obviously distressed, and it all just kind of tumbles out.]
The first time was an accident. Not the executions. Just a terrible, terrible fucking accident and he was gone and I couldn't stand it. Couldn't deal with a world without him in it, couldn't deal with seeing his face on what I thought was a monster to remind me of it constantly.
...Couldn't end myself, not when the people he loved so much needed someone and I was the only option left.